Why I want to get rehired after 3 years off?

Username: Jovana_Bg
Status: Cruise Ship Veteran
Country: Serbia
Company: Princess Cruises
Hire Agency: N / A
Occupation: N / A
Ship: N / A
Posts: 165

I already wrote earlier about my experience at the Princess, and repeatedly said that I had no desire to ever return there. It’s been almost 3 years since my last contract.
If you ask me what I was doing, where I was for these three years, I wouldn’t know what to tell you.
Nothing big and vital has happened in my life. I didn’t got married, I didn’t start a family, and I did not become a millionaire. And time flew by.

Let me be clear, I worked and earned for a living all that time, often went out and enjoyed life, I can not say that I did something wrong, but it is far from the kind of life I want for myself.
I have always lacked something, new clothes, new shoes, …
I get into the boutique, I see at least five items that knock me off my feet, but at that moment I can buy maybe just one pair, and it gets me depressed, no matter how irrelevant and unimportant it seem to you.

For these past three years, some of my friends were significantly successful in the field of career advancement, solved some of the most important life’s questions, and these people are my motivation to succeed.
Note that they were not pursuing their career onboard cruise ships like me, but they happened to find themselves in a series of unrealistically fortunate circumstances. Not me.

For a few months I have been dwelling on weather to try to get myself rehired, looking at those people who have succeeded in life. A single day does not pass by without me asking myself what would have happened to me if I stayed on a cruise ship for the past three years. I certainly would not miss anything here, that’s clear, and I wouldn’t be in this position, that’s for sure.

Last month, in my mind, I’m already gone back onboard.
You know what I miss the most? I miss waking up every day in a different city, every day sunny and warm. I miss sipping coffee in different world capitals every day, shopping at the same.
I’m not a person to work from 9 to 5 in an office, take vacation once a year, and occasionally dinner out. A life like that does not satisfy me, because I always have the feeling that I’m missing something. I pretend not to know what it is, but in fact I know very well.

On board, people live their lives 200 miles per hour, they experience in 6 months what other people experience on land in 3 lives. And I dread the thought of life and youth passing by, and don’t want to waste my time here on land.
When I completed my last contract, I had the attitude that I didn’t want to leave my youth and my best years there, I didn’t want to throw another 6 months of my life there. But now, from this perspective, after 3 years of nothing here, I regret 3 misspent and wasted years here. On board, a single day is not wasted, that’s what I think now.

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